Living the Dream

I entered a fast food restaurant,

My brand, where they will serve

Breakfast 24/7 & where I’ve never

Been sick afterwards, &  this knowledge

Is very valuable much like entering

An area in remote Indonesia & figuring out the

Friendly tribes & how to avoid the cannibals,

I & my wife walk up to the counter, an affable Chicano dude

Takes my order, while giving others in the

Kitchen  orders & I ask him how he is doing?

“Living the dream,” he says,

“Living the dream,” he repeats,

“And you sir?” he asks.

“Wonderful!” I reply, “Wonderful!” I repeat.

I’ve been sitting in my back yard

Remembering this and taking in my

Flowering light lavender purple crepe myrtle, with finches eating

Thistle seed from the hanging socks, my wife has tied there,

in this twenty foot tree the finches are hanging

upside down on the sock like yellow monkeys &

Loud red and orange Canna Lilies in the corner of the yard and now bright

New Red Crepe myrtle, is coming in beside the compost box, at breast height

Flowering for the first time deep purple red, I’m making small talk with my wife &

We are on a back deck under an umbrella at 10 am drinking good coffee

& it will be 104 degrees today, but now it is so pleasant &

I’m remembering this breakfast two weeks ago &

Thinking about “living the dream,” this gentleman

Had lots of tattoos, and deep scars on his face

& forearms—clearly some of his dreams had been

Nightmares, & there was a tone of

Sarcasm in his reply, & so much of this life in

Stepping  into retirement has been this ever-rewarding notion that

I am living the dream, while the poems & stories come out &

Scream out sometimes or sometimes softly but I’m finally living the dream

& the small pension and social security are like the Guggenheim

I never applied for, nor even wanted to apply for, & this

Notion of the artists’ life having to have the day job, & wait,

I did both, I waited, did the bidding of others for a decades & a half

& now I get to fish when I want drive this word processor all day

Or fifteen minutes if I want & I’m taking all this in and paying

Attention dutifully to what my wife is saying, & then she leaves & more

Finches come, a beautiful small red & blue grosbeak comes to the

Bird feeder & peeks around the foliage, leaves, comes back leaves again

& comes back and feeds, I notice robins in the grape vines on the white picket

Fence & realize they are eating our grapes that have just ripened, I yell

At them, my wife has come to find out what is going on &

I tell her about the grapes & we both go to inspect, &

Well they have hammered all fifty or sixty bunches of table grapes

That we were waiting to pick tomorrow, my wife is really mad

& I’m out on the other side of the fence laughing at the birds & the picked

Clean clumps that were just yesterday pumping up their white green

Sugary goodness & are now skeletons beneath the yellowing leaves

I am living the dream; &  I’ve got scars to prove it, like the sweet gone grapes

It is very good this given life & its mortal expanse &

Last year the neighbors picked the grapes while we were on holiday.

 

Now, let-me-tell-you-this-story..

I was in Peter’s cabin in southern Oregon, in the summer of 1981,

Peter had finished Seminary in 1965, & having done a stint as a

Chaplain in the Navy, or maybe it was the Army, he declined  to be ordained,

& went to work selling books for New Directions,

In 1967, he’d been hitting up book stores for

James Laughlin, & he stopped in

San Francisco—took LSD, & tried briefly

To become King of the hippies & realizing there

Were too many pretenders to the throne, he

Then retreated to southern Oregon, where

He bought a very small cabin in the woods & went on forays

For Amanita mushrooms every fall and spring on the Oregon coast,

He’d dry hundreds of  them & step into an altered reality most every day, then

Run ten  miles &  in his mid-forties he looked like an athlete in his twenties,

Peter had an estranged wife in  northern California & a young daughter

& was dating a nurse from the Psych ward in  a Medford hospital,

When I met him, & the first time I was in his cabin, on a round oak

Dining table was a copy of Wasson’s, Soma: the Divine  Mushroom of Immortality;

An ethno-mycological study—the cover a stark-white layout

With two   bright red  Amanita Muscaria  mushrooms w/white spots,

You will see this entheogenic mushroom in illustrations

Of Grimm’s fairy tales & even Disney’s Snow White, but Wasson’s contention

Is that this mushroom was instrumental in prehistoric world religion

& that is widely held now, as a naturalistic explanation of religion

& the summer after college I house-set my English professors apartment in Cambridge

& read this book, & Peter, impressed that I knew anything about it

Proceeded to let me sample, his stash of Ammanita Pantherina’s which were not red

but the color of gold leaf  & fruited out in the springtime & stronger than the Muscaria, &

two weeks after I’d had several small doses, I came over one morning for coffee,

&  Pete fed me six dried pancake-size mushrooms

I went up on his roof  & about an hour later he gave me five more with water,

I laid down and looked at the forest, took in the madrone trees and Douglas fir

over Pete’s house & though slightly nauseous I began to get really high,

I moved slowly off the roof from a ladder &

I came down & made my way around his house & out to a postage  stamp size

Lawn of about hundred square feet that was adjacent his house, & then

Down a path, beside his driveway & a small pond he’d made, with a pole

Bridge arcing over the top & transplanted river iris in the bank where a spring fed in

& I continued up the path where there were  a number of  Washington Lilies, whose

trumpet shaped white flowers on stems five to six feet tall, exuded a fragrance

that can waft 50 feet or more & these radiant lilies are named for Martha Washington

& walking by this air filled  florescence in white flowers nodding  facing outward

pale-lavender on the outside & tiny purple spots on inside, tips slightly curved back

I continued toward & into a stand of Ponderosa pine with black oak & Douglas fir mixed in

& now a  dry balsam smell  & now I was about a hundred yards from Peter’s cabin

& suddenly there was a man walking ahead of me I’d not seen before

He slowed, I got closer and I noticed the man was in a grey robe &

He turned around & I saw clearly this man was Jesus, & as

He turned I noticed a demeanor that was not one of annoyance, but

Yet it was as if he had been distracted by me,  from some other more pressing  intention, &

He had looked like this was going to be a necessary explanation for a too

Inquisitive child, & I had said nothing  & yes

there was seemingly white light  when I got close, much like the lilies

“I’m going to show you something,” He said,

“that most people don’t get to see until they die..” &  then

He touched me on my forehead with the flat part of a right forefinger bent slightly inward,

His hand making a half fist, & instantly inside me & every atom, every molecule of every plant,

& every rock,  & every tree & the water, the air & the bright blue summer sky—became

Love, as a base of experiential reality more real than anything I’d

Ever known, or have known since, & love was very apparently— the construct of  everything

& it was all pervasive & all around me,

& in me, & then breathing deeply, Jesus having since departed,

I staggered back to Pete’s house where there were now three people sitting on his lawn

&  I  loudly announced to everyone that,

“All there is, is love!” & they laughed as

I  announced this over & over—& I told no one about the Jesus

Part of this story—for about 35 years,

& I do not think I was supposed to..

I did assume this was a drug induced phenomenon, a vision none-the-less,

This phenomenon in the charismatic world is called an open vision,

Then after having  again, my own subjective yet, extra earthly always unexpected

Sober encounters with this same Jesus, though not as Christophany, as I’ve described, so

Eventually, I discounted naturalism as a notion & a base construction of reality

& just accepted that yes, of course it was Jesus,

& yes, I needed that, & I needed to know this was so, once & for all & always

You see, one week before this encounter  I was in Rock Creek Canyon & I—a stoned hippie,

Had scratched in large letters, on a rock, “God is Love,” & I knew this was true, only as philosophy &

Left it there for someone to find, & that this Jesus found me, & straightened this out &

He has been finding me in my own wondering ever since,

Now a reality & then a notion, but that notion now brings barrier, while this other is

As faith, eternal sustenance, sure goodness, & loving  kindness, &

Because it really is true that despite everything else, really,

Love is all there is.

 

 

Working men, & wolves & bear

Wolves took down deer working from the beach & up drainages
They creep around huge spruce & cedars & ambush
Wintering deer in among windfall & beach drift wood,
With snow melt & deer moving inland wolves moved there too
Pockets of wintering in the central part of island had deer
That never saw the ocean; the wolves took them there too
A vast sea the size of Delaware of forest rippled over mountains & rose up
From glacier made valleys, spruce, hemlock & cedar waving
Slowly as rain forest Foresters came & began hiking deep into the woods
Up creeks & on out to ridges that stretched into the alpine
Laying out roads & designating units of “harvest’ that
Laid out the boundaries of what would come next

Wolves took down deer working from the beach & up drainages
Loggers came soon & began to build roads first out of Craig & Klawok
Then Hollis, Thorne Bay, Naukati, Coffman Cove, Hydaberg
Cook shacks & bunk houses
Began to appear, company stores sold snacks & cigarettes
& Copenhagen cans, each camp had home guards where a wife or
Two appeared, State land came up for sale & like the 1800s
Houses began to appear, rough at first then nicer,

Wolves took down deer working from the beach & up drainages
Fishermen were already there mostly in Craig & native Klawok
And Hydaberg, but as houses sprang up there were more around the camps
Bunkhouses, still housed men & float planes took them to “town”
Ketchikan the first city in southeast Alaska as you go north
Scores of bars & women & two days if you could remember it was
Later called fun, no one thought it strange to send a float plane for pizza

Men took down large trees, working from the beach & up drainages
The pulp mills have ate up the Forrest around Ketchikan, began
To take down rafts of logs from the Archipelago of Islands on the
North American coast, the long straight grains of Sitka spruce that
Made everything from pianos & violins & were prized ships spars but
Then the pulp mill produced fiber slop & spun the forest towers
In to rayon for skirts, pant suits & blazers & all the while the late rubber
Had hit the road in the lower 48 with rayon strands woven in the tires as

Men took down large trees, working from the beach & up drainages
Building roads & made their way to head waters & started working on the slopes
The pulp mill ran three shifts, & the loggers came to town & still

Wolves took down deer working from the beach & up drainages
The roads began out of every logging camp from & gradually worked
Toward each other & the central part of the island, each logging camp
On the island sea locked & remote, began to become villages with
Wives & children & schools & little churches, & barged in grocery’s

Men took down large trees, working from the beach & up drainages
Around the island & roads built of island rock & granite began to connect
And logging was money & jobs were plentiful & loggers tramped
Their camp for another with the same pay each time a Camp supervisor
Did any bull shit thing, or too many mistakes were made in the rigging
& with the bull shit thing there was more danger & they began calling themselves
Tramps, with nose bag of thermos & gear & duffle bags, a sharp set of cork boot some of them
Worked the like work, all over the Archipelago Island all making various stops
Some of them set chokers some of them worked rigging & some of them fell trees,
Some of them made it their life & some of them made money to go to college so they could
Have a life; one timber faller put himself through dentistry school
& bought cabin cruiser & he came back with his wife to the islands every summer
For thirty years, long after the bunkhouses & cook shacks were gone
Fixing folks teeth, & while tourists came to catch halibut & salmon &
Men took down fewer large trees, working from the beach & up drainages

Big black bears always took salmon working from the beach & up drainages
Splashing of spawning fish big Coho’s & Sockeye & pink salmon as well, while
The big belly draggers were noted in the outdoor press as largest
In the world & anyone could come take them from all over the world
And the bear population that outnumbered people for a time came down
Without much notice & the locals took few bears for food & generally in the
Spring, & the press became advertisements & the lodges began
To sell package tours with a Suburban & an Island map, & with various expertise
Hunters came & bought tags & shot bears in the spawning streams
& drank liquor & wounded bears & shot sows with cubs
& drank liquor & shot bear, it didn’t take too many years before everyone
Stopped seeing belly draggers & the State sealers began sealing to the out of state
Hunter boys, teddy bear sized bears & sows were taken & the orphaned cubs showed back up
At the lodges & the ardent bear hunters began to call this wrong, & the State in time
Changed the rules after, a lot of the damage was done, on
Prince of Wales Island where nature was constant before 1954
& the roads began to connect, & the logs could go to the big mill in Craig & little
Mills all over the island, as the pulp mills were shutting down forty years later
When they & some of the foresters saw a diminishing end of the thought of never ending supply of
Men taking down large trees, working from the beach & up drainages

Where now a patch work of timber patches made a mosaic from the air
No need to plant trees in the rain forest land, the trees came back,
The big trees were gone forever if the clearcuts were rotated every 50-100 years, like well
Like, Aldo said, like cabbage patches & like cabbage patch kids, boys & girls with degrees
Showing how this could all be managed & Forest plans were planned
& all the nations’ laws were mentioned & it was still that,
Men taking down large trees, working from the beach, & up drainages but it was harder to do
Largely because folks started to sue, it seemed to those that were there,
As a carpet of trees came back in five years’ time, jobs were plentiful & the loggers
& Forest Service workers began to stay & villages became incorporated
& politics were added to the industry of timber, some became fishermen
And some started little mills, the road became pavement over time &

Wolves took down deer working from the beach & up drainages
& the villagers could trap, beaver otter marten & wolves
& kill deer for winter meat, salmon & halibut already canned up was larder as well
Grocery stores once distant, then became closer for some
Protein was often immediate & had to be taken,
Like taking a coat along on a cold winters day
every house hold was allowed five deer per person & all the
Salmon & halibut they could catch, & then in time some noticed not as many deer
& thought of the wolves & first blamed them, while seeing winter range
Disappearing on trucks, no one noticed dead fawns that had nothing in winter to eat
Only a few saw boatloads of bucks coming in on Charter boats,
No one saw wolves killed on the beach just for fun,
Winters snow depth not letting them out of inland stands of refuge, & the
Islands of refuge became deer holding pens, this all came after time while

Men took down large trees, working from the beach & up drainages
Slowly at first, tourists had arrived every summer
& lodges appeared; charter boats caught the “Barn Door” Halibut
& pictures were taken & no one thought of these three hundred pound
Flat fish as the egg laying mothers that kept up the stock & behemoths were
Caught & the pictures continued to be taken & the stock started to slow,
The commercial fishermen were limited to week long seasons & tourists from
Texas & tourist from Tennessee, tourists form California, New York, Minnesota
Came with thousands of dollars to spend & Chicken Bay which was named for
The good eating “chicken halibut,” fish of around twenty pounds
The chickens & their mothers were taken away &
The big fish were all distant, at a several hour boat ride,
The summer brought traveler halibut from the far north & villager long lined a year’s catch but
The charter boats & everyone else took the big ones & the stocks began to wane,
& after arguing for some time the biologists
Got a handle on this & there were less charter boats just in time, still
Wolves took down deer working from the beach & up drainages
Clearcuts in mosaic grew back plentiful forage, strings of mild winters
Let deer slip through wolves & men & for a good time deer numbers were up,
The roads adjacent to clearcuts were for a time shooting galleries each fall
After hunting the alpine the deer lower down could be found in the clearcuts
And a rest from the road & nice buck would fall, the rut would deliver more &
Boats following the beach could come back with a boat load of bucks
To round out each families take, then charter folks began to do this

Men took down large trees, no longer working up from the beach
The drainages were logged leaving a bath tub ring of harvest around all the island’s creeks
Save the centermost part & the Karta wilderness, & the Honker divide
The inner portions of timber taken were deer winter range & soon there was
Less & less of it, more roads more hunters less deer, & now

There were less wolves to take down less deer working from the beach & up drainages
& men took to killing wolves, no longer working up from the beach, but working up roads,
& no longer for pelts in the winter, men took to killing wolves because they were wolves
& they also ate deer, & the fewer wolves became few wolves in the central part of the Island
That save the beach road on the Clarence straight was surrounded by pavement,
& 4 wheel drive pickups could speed from side to side of the island
& crawl up most roads until deep December & hiking in & setting snares became
Predator control for the few that warred on wolves, and called themselves the wolf patrol,
Some biologists called it the end of the wolves upcoming, & others said they’d be alright,
but when they started to investigate the wolves were down to a few,
& the few became three & the dens were all empty save one
& it would be some time even then if measures were taken, though none are planned until
wolves once again took down deer working from the beach & up drainage’s
& if the Central Island wolves disappear; there are still packs to the north though not very many,
And packs to the south, though not very many, & maybe they’ll come back
Just like the halibut and bear the biologists disagreed &
Some say the winter range can be logged & others say it can’t,
3 or four wolves taking down deer working from the beach & up drainages
& now there are court cases & lawyers & judges to decide whether
Wolves will still take down deer working from the beach & up drainages.

In the Spring When Kings Go out to Battle

Battle is all I know

& I count myself dead

Beginning with each war

There is no other way

There is no wife &

There is no life &

I must end life that comes forward to me.

War is not a backward motion

 

I never knew

That I knew

But I knew perfectly

When my company of men pulled away..

 

I was always ready to die for this King

For I am one of his 40 mighty men!

& I, a foreigner, a Hittite, as is my wife

Our grandparent’s grandparents settled in with

These Hebrews who treated us well, & many of us

Like myself & my wife became proselytes

Their faith now mine, is now mine own battle dress

 

Today is no different—except today I know

Just as these dogs are before me— I will die..

 

But not before this one who charges out of the

Throng, & oh  how I love spilling his blood, & cleaving

Half through his neck & chest— he never saw it..

Now they see me ready again,

“Who is next of you— dogs? Who of your slime is next?

 

He brought me out of battle! Battle!

This is shame! To leave battle,

I know of no other guilt I could be guilty of

& not ask for forgiveness from this their mighty God

Because it is so vile and shameful! To leave battle?

I, Uriah the Hittite shirked no battle afraid of no foe?

To leave battle? Sent from battle like some load bearer,

Smelled fine food and his perfume in his palace

But not my brothers sweat!

What could be the reason?—this King is my life?

When each war ends, but not until it ends

Until then My life— is always Battle!

War  when it begins is a linear  series of horrific acts

Each death an immoral, yet honorable action until war ends.

This one is not over; we could lose, the battle King

Could lose, simply because he is not here

That men would rally to his standard as the standard of the Almighty

My queen death by my right and left

Hand is the end purpose of my blood!

I sacrifice a lamb for every man I kill.

 

He set me before table of feast & wine

Then bade me go to my wife? To my wife?

When it is my oath to kill the dogs set before me

& there they remain and my brothers without me at their side?

That is all I could fathom.. I slept at his door & never saw my wife.

 

Heh, you, you Ammonite scum, die as you run to me! I know your slime

Ridden brothers will soon bring your archers to bear

Until then, this is two of your Hundreds

That taunt, dead & the blood still spilling out of that one now,

His tunic floating red now..

“I want more of you, like a hungry man wants his dinner!”

 

Three are running toward me now, one to the right, he will

Make a flanking move, the others come straight forward with

Lances, I will kill them all with these moves the Most High

Has given me, we 40 men were schooled in the difference between

Killing and murder—I am a killer. It is so. Yet I have never murdered.

But he the King? Why does he murder me? I thought Joab could never do this

Had it not been bidden by the King

I carried the message that ordered this treachery—I saw it on Joab’s face

My brothers would never do this,  Joab placed me with

Young men, first time in battle & when they withdrew on orders

As I led the charge and these dogs quartered in and have

Boxed  me on this rocky field I saw them Leave in tight formation

—the King was angered

When I refused to go to my wife

 

Perhaps he slept with my wife & brought me

Home to assuage this guilt? Yet I cannot believe that.

Did he not know that the most shame I could bare

Fiends take my wife who bathed on the roof below the Kings’ window

I joked about the King seeing her private parts!

Perhaps that was my sin, perhaps she will foal Hebrew blood and connect

To a lineage unknown to me, there is more than war, I know now that

This is the day I die, I would want nothing but warriors for sons,

Still.. was leaving my brothers in arms for his table a thing he thought I could bear?

Ah, but those days he commanded us in the field!

I would follow him anywhere and do his bidding

No matter the course, so I left battle hoping to be

Assigned a particularly dangerous duty..

 

Oh! How, I love to side-step a shield & with a feinting move

This flanking bastard coming close will soon die & while these two get to see me jump!

Up so my sword can kill from the height of his shoulder

I plunge it straight down with the quick stab which parallels down the neck

Passing through clavicle quickly & down quickly down..

Down into the vitals & as I come back to earth tipping the living falling corpse back he falls

The air leaves him & my sword is out and now & as he topples—I kill the other two!

The look on his face when I left the ground is still in my mind

As I now smell them all bleeding—& it is strange that now I wish the King was watching.

 

“I, Uriah the Hittite Servant of King David—of his 40 mighty men will go to my

Death with joy this day—as a warrior I’ve never looked for rescue!”

My brothers backed off leaving me cut off & the wall over there..

I’ve known since I was dispatched from the King

Some one thing was wrong, & if it be betrayal—so be it.

That I’ve fought valiantly for this King no one will ever deny

This has been my great joy when it was I knew he

Voiced daily with Almighty, I’d seen him as a youth

When he’d put down that ungodly beast behemoth Goliath

Stinking philistine that he was—I admit it I could not fathom it

Yet I saw it, I saw it at 18 and he was 15, & he killed him

With stone from his sling, dead, in the dirt

The giant that smelled of excrement & ate raw meat

& entrails unclean & putrid & gargantuan as he was—he bloated in half a day

David cut off his head with the Giant’s own sword!

Oh how we rejoiced seeing the Philistine dogs run after this &

When I heard that the prophet named David the anointed of

The Almighty I knew of no other thing I could do

But serve him— David, and shortly swore my allegiance

To him and only him, that my old uncle

Betrayed him, & his traitor son who infuriated me, & when I

Saw Absalom dead my heart swelled with the joy

The justice of it, yet I saw my King weep & grieve

As if he’d lost an infant child, I thought him

Beyond human with tenderness that day

I, Uriah the fierce Hittite was moved by

His loss and his ability to love

Now I see that they are

Sending five at me… Ha! I give it to these dogs they

Have not brought archers nor javelins to bear even now & will

Try showing themselves men! Ha! I’ll kill these five!

 

I’m now leaking red blood & that was a little harder

Than I thought—my age? I’ll have no gray hair after this day!

Ha! This Day of my death, no old man tottering before a grave for me!

I am a warrior & death has always been my mistress.

That keeps me true to my wife!

I’ve always been true but now there are

Other arms of Sheol reaching to receive me —I go there with honor!

If there is resurrection as some of these Hebrews believe,

I desire to march straight for it.

But not before I taunt them more, “Dogs! come spill some more of your

Entrails that I Uriah will make you whore mothers weep! Dogs that

Defy the Mighty one of Israel! Come die with me today so you

Will see Sheol and bark for even dark mercy!”

These Hebrews taught me Job & He Who is Mighty

Test men—I’ll be true to this test

Ha! & now I see the archers being placed, & a phalanx of

Infantry to take my arrowed corpse, Ha! Today I die!

The morning sky is red, & a hot wind blows in my face,

My doom is this day will not steal my joy of this

My final battle—a wrong done against me never-the-less

Through a cause of which I’ll never know here.. yet I smell Hyssop

I smell olive oil,  I smell savory, and Basil, and Aloe

Their clang of armor sounds paltry,

Now I’m hearing distant symbols, tambourines & trumpets

Bah!  I throw down my shield & pick up a lance!

In thirty feet the archers will have to shoot round their infantry

I will charge them!

He has some reason not privy to me, & so as said Job

& now I charge them! & I’m yelling:

“Even though He slay me, yet I will praise Him!”

Starting just before 1970

 

The double standard was part
Of the unwritten rule
At the start of the decade of the seventies
rules were being bent,
made up, broken, thrown away
& generally laughed at.
wouldn’t be until the mid-1980s
that the pandemic
of acquired immune deficiency syndrome
would bring us scurrying through the gutters
to find the rules and again adopt a modicum
of fidelity that had been temporarily
on hold while penicillin really had knocked
sexually transmitted disease easier to cure
than the common cold, oh these were the brave years
of a sexual revolution that was no more
revolutionary than tomato juice
Personal behavior as a consequence
was on hold with Roe v. Wade mixed up
privacy with infanticide, or reinstalled it
as a pagan rite, while My Lai could be rationalized & its
perpetrators could be slid into obscure exoneration
in the day it was Pendleton shirts, and Converse tennis shoes,
V-8 engines that took you down the American highway
At a high rate of speed, the lonesome highways
between suburbs and rural America where you
could feel a rhythm of road noise
& drive in a day a distance
your grandfather could not travel in three weeks
& then there was the warm wet your pants
seduction of the commercial
National rant of it, that sold the notion
to the nation that this perfect thing
we thought we had, was never perfect, which it wasn’t.
but the sales pitch was—that there was a sale
on Democracy worldwide & that, somehow made it right
that we had the right to make that illusion
part of everywhere else.

Believing

Our love
Our love is all of God’s money
Everyone is a burning sun

-Jeff Tweedy

Belief is the locked up tangible thing,
of law that the dust can be blown off of,
taken from a bookshelf, objectified, crucified
pointed at, solid repository of ideological contusions,
Gnostic misdemeanors, white lies & black ones of unreality
no different from the adulterous
first degree murder of guilty abrasions on your soul & woeful
finger-pointing wrong in legalistic right…

“Liberals and fundamentalists are both humanists,” said the old preacher grinning as he cleaned the carburetor of his Buick with Joy from a yellow plastic bottle & a tooth brush

“One believes there is a better day a coming, all with a strong right arm of correct politics, & culture change.

“The other believes there is a better day a coming, if you do everything the Bible say; both have made Man’s action the operative & left out God as the agent of change. ” Then after putting the air cleaner back together, he laughed and said, “Isn’t it interesting that moralism gets us only so far!”

Rolling up through time & space containerized in

This bone-bag existence of drunken pleasure & pain
& psychedelic sin
& death…

Thankfully,
Believing is..
alive
the BE Living,
the BE loving
Believing is..
Holy Spirit..
Who is…
fluid active running down the river & the red fish
in the river & the same thing and is this River of Life flowing from us..
living water of life on this planet flowing from us somehow..
that gets us to the other side
& brings us back
A-gain,
A resurrection
A dilation of time, in this space–from another one.
so the bone bag has some kin
w/ the reddening sky,
mist on the mountain
bird song, moon rising
star twinkle ’round Orion’s belt
& sun setting over placid ocean
& laughter of a four year old son,
keeper of His kingdom
the Life is..
the forgiving cry of the first born Son
Who is…
the Truth, blessed Yeshua
the Way, to get though this life w/joy,
perseverance, love &
everlasting knowledge..
“Our Father in heaven..”
Who is…
& because His name is..
so Hallowed
this is…
within us &
all so, “On earth as it is in Heaven.”

I planted in the Trinity alps

Someday I’ll go to
the second growth forest
I planted in the Trinity alps
on SP land on a ridge, where
every day at 4 p.m. for three days
Navy jets roared over us
at treetop level shaking the
ground and our hippy asses, while
resting & drinking tall boys
after 7 hours of
bone breaking work, placing tiny
spruce in ripped soil w/ tiny roots
all landing in moisture &
packed down to spring out
next spring and grow back
to giant towers just before
the bare grassy alpine, if
& only if they are forgotten